And just like that, we’re getting closer to the end of the year and with that, the end of the first semester!
I just wanted to post this one here because I truly appreciate each and every single “night-outs” I had for the past four months (I still honestly drank a little too much). But, who says Med students are too busy to drink and party? We’re done with yet again another block (Goodbye Block 3!). It was a great 6 weeks and I honestly loved Block 3 and tomorrow it’ll be the first case synthesis for Block 4 which is the official start of our second sem!
Yes! I know. We’re starting Block 4 right off the bat and I don’t personally understand it as well but you know, there are a lot of things that we don’t understand in Med school and starting Block 4 right away is one of those things. Haha.
I can’t wait for our most-awaited Christmas Break/Sem break! My brain’s honestly on vacation mode already but I still have an exam on the 9th and my brain’s got to hustle one last time.
2019 is indeed such a great year so far and I wish and hope that December will not disappoint. There’s going to be a lot of things that will be happening this month so I am pretty excited. Can’t wait for everything to go down!
Should I do vlogmas?!
One week ago. 👋🏻
One of my cousins turned 18 on November 3 and I went on a two-hour boat ride to Bohol to attend her special day.
I always love family gatherings. Growing up, my family (extended) almost always finds a reason to celebrate something every month whether it’s a birthday or even a death anniversary.
On normal Sundays, my Lola Nanay would always go out of her way to cook us something special for lunch and we’d all eat till our bellies are happy. If she is not able to prepare dessert, we’d buy tubs of ice cream for dessert and we’d sit down around the long oval table and my Titas, Titos, cousins and I would talk about almost anything (sometimes local issues). Indeed, Sundays are great for the Domingos.
Anyway, glad to have spent time with some of my family members during the break even if I didn’t go home to Borongan. #Este
Happy Sunday everyone!
Fun fact: Sunday in Waray is DOMINGO. 😉
I’m on YouTube.
The thing about studying in Cebu, is that I am far away from my family. It’s a daily dose of not coming home to Lola’s cooking and my mom’s “Uwi ka na” calls at 12 midnight (haha). But indeed in order to make my dreams of a doctor a reality, I have to bear with the musings of living in a dorm and being away from the house that kept me sane during my gap year.
My name is Beafleur Elaina Cui and I am a first year Medicine student at Cebu Doctors’ University. After passing the Physical Therapy boards back in August 2018, I felt burnt out and lost. I didn’t want to proceed to Medschool, “just cause”. So for a year, I went on a journey of self-love and self discovery and I am so glad I did. Because now my soul and my heart is ready to conquer whatever challenges come my way.
Growing up from a family of doctors, I’ve always wanted to be just like them. Honestly, I wasn’t forced to study Medicine just because it was the family’s badge. I wanted to study Medicine because I want to be able to be a part of people’s journeys; I want to be there to guide them, give the appropriate medical advice & treatment and be their helping hand in their times of need. I think being a doctor embodies everything that I want to become as a person in the next five to ten years; responsible, caring, smart among others. And with that being said, I want to be a pediatric oncologist. Cancer runs in my blood and yes, it sucks to have the cancer gene. But what draws me to focus on pediatrics is my love for children and entertaining small beautiful humans all still full of hope and light. Cancer sucks no matter how old it hits you but for these babies; who’ve only just been in this Earth for a couple of years, who haven’t seen the worsts yet, to have this incurable disease is just deafening. I want to fight their battles with them and be an instrument of healing.
I think what I dream to achieve someday aligns with what my school, CDU-CM, visualizes for the future. I believe being in this institution would help be become a happy & well-rounded doctor bringing light to the kids that I will hopefully be treating in my plight to becoming a pediatric oncologist. I have not doubted CDU’s capabilities of honing an individual to be the best that they can be because even my parents– my role models– studied and graduated from this very university that I am enrolled in. Truly, CDU CARES.
Another day, another SGD.
Another chance for us to have a group picture! + we’re finally complete this time around.
If you guys didn’t know, SGD is short for Short Group Discussions. Instead of the traditional ratio of 1 lecturer:40-50 students, we are grouped into 10s & each of us have a facilitator that would assist us in our “discussions”. Our facilitator (a doctor), presents a case & we are given the chance to define terms, state the problems and make a hypothesis about what the case is all about.
It takes some getting used to, to be honest, because instead of just listening to one speaker, you listen to nine other opinions about the case, brainstorming causes and effects and whatnot. It’s been fun, so far, but we haven’t even tackled the difficult topics yet so we’ll have to see.
So here’s another picture of us! You guys are going to be seeing more of these people in my blogs & vlogs since they are my SGD groupmates for my entire first year in Medicine. Also, I did vlog today so there might be a “MedLife” vlog soon. We’ll have to see!
I met my groupmates today. Honestly I have been waiting to make new friends since Med started but due to the endless orientations that we had to attend, for two days plus the weekend that went by, I was left wondering about who are these individuals that I’m going to be spending every short group discussion with for the rest of my first year in Medicine.
We, all ten of us, are diverse in such a way that we have four medtechs, two nurses, a psychometrician, a bio major, a physical therapist (me) & the one that left me in awe, a dentistry student. Four of us came from CDU & the rest are from schools like USC, Velez, UP Cebu & even La Salle Bacolod.
I don’t want to jinx anything, but our group dynamic had potential. I hope we will all get along in the days and months to come!
So here is a picture from our “acquaintance lunch” at YellowCab.
PS. I did ask permission from them if I could post them here.
PPS. Kulang kami ng isa! But may sub naman. Find the sub 😉
PPPS. Insert John
When I look at this picture, I can’t help but ask “Really? That fast?”
After I passed the board exam in August, I went on this journey of self-love. I wanted to have fun, explore the outdoors and go on countless adventures. What prompt me to go on this journey was not only for my wanderlust but also for my staggering mental health at that time. I was… not myself, I guess. I didn’t even know the exact reasons as to why I felt like 2018 was such a heavy load that all I ever did was cry and be disappointed. That despite graduating and passing the boards, I still felt empty. I didn’t know, maybe I was just tired of everything and I wanted to breathe.
To tell you the truth, I wasn’t forced to study Physical Therapy, it was my freewill, but after five years I just had a lot of what ifs, mostly about my other hobbies; hobbies which I pursued for the past couple of months. I love the arts as much as I loved to wallow in medical books (not even sarcastic). Poetry was definitely my niche at that time since they were short, concise but powerful in ways that could portray so many emotions in just one stanza. The more I got stuck in the paramedical life, the more I longed to do other things aside from it; photography, filmography, blogging and baking. So I asked if I could take a break before I proceed to another life-long commitment. Fortunately, my mom let me but of course It took a lot of rationalizing and reasoning out.
Medicine may be four years but it doesn’t stop there. After Med, there’s a post-graduate internship before you can even take the boards. After that you can either be a general practitioner or have your residency, in which most people do. And that, is another 4-6 years of your life. See?
Since I was a little, my path has been planned out. All my life I was surrounded by a bunch of doctors/people from the medical field. To be a doctor was the ultimate goal for my family (Lolas would remind you even). It honestly is still my dream but I guess before I dove into it, I just needed space to be creative. I wanted to keep myself sane and ready for the next chapter of my life and that is why I am here.
Two months left before this girl is back to studying her ass off for her dream.
How about you guys? How’s your dream?
My heart beams for the people who message me how much I have influenced them, through writing, vlogging or incorporating small ecofriendly habits to their routine. It warms my heart to know that I am not alone and that someone reads/watches the content that I have been putting out here on my blog and on my YouTube channel; that the time and effort that invest on it is somehow worth it.
I started this page two years ago for my poetries and my food recipes. Now, 6 months since reviving this page it has became a haven more than just for poetry and food but for travel and lifestyle as well. I don’t even post recipes here anymore though I think soon I would want to make smoothie bowls again if time permits. But I am overwhelmed by the (almost) 600 lovely and beautiful people that follow this blog. And even to the minute 68 subscribers on YouTube is more than enough for me to continue this passion that I have been pursuing for this so-called “gap year” that I am having.
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